I should definitely be sleeping right now. That past few days have been so busy and exhausting. We are finally moved, and this new apartment is just as great as I was expecting. My sister-in-law came down on Friday to help with Nathaniel while we finished unpacking. She also helped me hang all of our pictures and everything. The place is already looking better than anywhere we have lived before. I am hoping to stay here a few years until we buy a house.

Tomorrow is our last Sunday at the church. I think we will be sad, but also assured that leaving was the right thing to do. I pray that something will happen to change the lives of the youth there. It is sad, but I know it will take something big to turn their lives around.

Time for sleep.

Surprise and Relief

We told the church that we were leaving today, and there was no reaction. A few people that we know were sad that it worked out this way, and those are the people that we will really miss. I'm not saying that they all had to be really upset about us leaving, but we at least expected them to be surprised. There was just no reaction at all. Overall the announcement went well. We know that the youth have never given us a chance, and there are so many factors that contributed to that. So many thoughts are going through my head about what we have learned in the past few months, but it would be wrong to say everything. There are so many issues that Stefan and I are still finding out about this church. It makes me sick to think about everything.

The packing is going well. We are almost finished, and we don't move until Thursday. It feels good to be ahead of schedule, but this week is still going to be very busy. I can't wait to be in our apartment. It is going to have brand new carpet and tile. I am ready to decorate, and make it feel like home. God has really worked the timing out for us, and I am so thankful for everything he has done for my family. My husband will start his new job in September. It is going to be great.

New Job!

All I have to say is Stefan got the job! We have been waiting a few weeks for the news. He will be an enrollment counselor at the University of Phoenix Cordova Campus. Things have not been well at the church for awhile now, and this opportunity just came along. We are so excited. Even better I will still be able to stay home with Nathaniel, and there will be no stress about money. That is a new feeling to us. Now we are busy packing for the big move next Thursday. We found an apartment and were able to get approved the same day. The apartment is getting new carpet and tile. I can't wait to get moved and set up our new place.

Stefan has already talked to the pastor about leaving, and he is telling the whole church tomorrow. I know they will be surprised because they seem oblivious to what is going on with that youth group. We have known for awhile that we would have to leave.

Sundays

I always feel bad for thinking like this, but I never enjoy Sundays anymore. I want it to be a great day set aside to worship God, but it seems like we are caught up in so many other things. I am tired of coming home from church and discussing all the bad things that happened that morning. I know these feelings will go away when my family can finally be where we should be, but I don't understand why that time can't come faster. I feel like I can't write everything I feel because I would hate for someone to see this and my husband end up fired. All I can say is that we need to get out soon and then I can explain further. We are waiting for a phone call that can't come soon enough. There is so much more that I want to say, but I just don't feel safe doing it. I should be able to explain everything soon.

Still Waiting

I have not posted this week because we have not received the big news as planned. We are still waiting to hear about it at any moment. I can't wait to let everyone know what is going on.

In other news, I am going to finish an accounting degree online. We found a great program from a State College in Nebraska. I am really excited to be starting school again. The only setback right now is the beginning accounting class is closed, and I can't get into it. The plan is for me to take a clep test for that class and then continue on as normal.

Waiting

I am in Sherwood right now with Nathaniel. We were supposed to be in Walnut Ridge with some friends, but one of their children was sick. To make a long story short, I dropped Stefan off in Walnut Ridge, had a great lunch with Beth, and drove down here in one day. I really don't mind driving alone, but I am not looking forward to leaving early tomorrow. Nathaniel gets to see his nana, so it is worth the trip.

It is interesting because we really miss Stefan this time. We have been here a few time while Stefan had to stay in Memphis. I think it is different this time because Nathaniel notices that he is not here. He heard Stefan's voice on the phone last night, and had the biggest smile. We are still going to the wedding tomorrow. I'm sure the guys are having a great time together.

We are waiting for some news from Stefan. I'll fill everyone in on that later.

Busy day

We are getting ready to travel to Walnut Ridge tomorrow. Janet and Jory are getting married on Saturday, and the rehearsal dinner is on Thursday so we are going a day early. I am glad that we get to spend the extra time in town, but it is so much harder to pack for that extra day. I always feel like I am forgetting something for Nathaniel. I really shouldn't worry about it because I can always pick up anything he needs. Nathaniel and I will be staying with Rob and Stacy, and Stefan is going to stay with Jory both nights. I am really looking forward to a few days away from M-town, but I always get stressed out when we take Nathaniel anywhere. It is really irrational because Nathaniel has always been a great traveler. I am just an uptight first mom that is afraid to get away from our daily schedule. I keep telling myself that I am not going to be the same way with my second child.

In other news we are trying to find a good online program so I can finish my degree. We found this great school in Nebraska and I sent all my stuff in to finish a liberal arts degree. We just figured it would be a degree, and if they transferred all my hours, then I could finish in a year. It turns out that they penalized me for having the associates degree, and only transferred 66 hours. We don't know why, but I am not going to spend another 2 years finishing a liberal arts degree. We are now in the process of changing the major to accounting. I guess I am really excited about taking a few classes again.

Stefan and I had a long discussion about how I am not motivated to finish any degree. It's true that having a degree is not my first priority, but he wants me to have something in case anything ever happens to him. I don't mind taking the classes since I am not working right now. I should have the time. The lack of motivation comment did bother me a little bit. I just didn't want to sink money into a degree that I may never use. I hope this accounting degree will work out so we can both be happy.

This post is random. I am still really new at putting my thoughts out in public. Please Pray for us as we are traveling.

New at this

I have been thinking about starting a blog for awhile now. I think this will be a good way for me to get my thoughts and feelings out into the open, and possibly make some new friends in the process. I don't know if many people will read this, but that is fine with me. My life is not that interesting, and I will probably talk mostly about Nathaniel. Some major things are fixing to happen in my family's life. I can't really say much about that until Friday. Hopefully it will be good news, and I will fill everyone in on what has been going on.

Today has been very exciting so far. I have met a new friend, and she called me again today to invite me to a woman's conference. I do not know if I will be able to go yet, but it was still nice of her to think of me. We talked for awhile. I enjoy that so much because my social life has definitely been lacking since we moved to Memphis. Stefan has to attend a sunday school training workshop with the church tonight, so Nathaniel and I will be alone. I think we are going to be lazy and pick up some fast food. I will hopefully have something more interesting to talk about after Friday.